The hardest reviews to write are for the books that hit me the deepest,
the ones I love the most. Let me tell you, this review took me weeks to
write! I couldn't get my thoughts together on it or decide which part to
review. This definitely was the hardest review to wrote to date. So here goes....
"I knew my marriage was in trouble the night my husband brought home a streetwalker to teach me how to satisfy him."
Once
I read that line, I was hooked. Just by that one line, I knew I was
going to be on a rough and stormy ride of emotions that would pull me in
opposite directions the entire time. And I was right. Those words hit
me with such force I swear I could hear and feel what the heroine felt.
It also happens to be the first line in the book.
Lily
of the Springs isn't my typical read. I usually read heavy romance
books. Occasionally I'll branch out to other genres, but any book I read
must keep me enthralled in order for me to keep reading it...making me
forget all those steamy love scenes I so very much look forward to. And
this book did. I could not put it down! I loved every minute of it and
if I could give this book more than 5 stars I would. This is one of
those books that captured my heart and will never let go...and I don't
want it to. I simply loved it and didn't want it to end. Just thinking
about this book brings a bittersweet smile to my face.
Carole
Bellacera takes the reader back in time as the story takes place over
the course of three decades- the 1940's, 1950's and 1960's. The story
starts off in Kentucky and travels through the mid-west as the story
unfolds. The story follows Lily as she searches for independence and
love- not only from her husband but from herself as well. All the while
Carole does an excellent job of describing the settings as the story
develops. She pulls the reader back in time. I felt as if I lived
through that time period. While there were a few words that I had never
heard before, I found her overall choice of words to be right on point.
Lily falls in love with her high school sweetheart and plans to
get married. The young couple was very much in love. They agreed to
give themselves to each other until one night Lily’s boyfriend didn't
want to wait anymore. So he sought out someone else, devastating Lily.
After finding out what happened, a heartbroken Lily turned to a
childhood friend. It's been years since she's spoken with him…after all,
she was not allowed to speak with him. He's the one friend from long
ago who she connected with during her childhood years in Kentucky, Jake.
Jake is the stereotypical white trash boy of the town. The kind
of bad boy you want your daughter to stay away from. He comes from a
bitter family. He's learned from watching the actions of his abusive
father. He does what he wants when he wants. It's his way or the
highway. When he sees Lily walking down the street, he wants her. Which
isn't a problem for him since Lily goes willingly and openly into his
arms. One night of passion turns into a secret romantic relationship
that grows hot and sexy, until shocking news sets their fate in
motion…news that Lily thought Jake would be happy with but clearly
wasn't.
What Jake attempted nearly gave me a panic attack. I
really believed Jake would have been happy with the news, but he wasn't.
In a way I was glad he didn't accept the news with happiness. It would
have been too easy....
"You made your bed, now you have to sleep
in it," is what Lily's mother told her. And she does, trying to make the
best of her marriage to an alcoholic and abusive husband. Jake was
abusive on all levels- physically, emotionally and verbally, and Lily
took it all. Yet she forgave him many times for his actions. Lily loved
Jake and did whatever he needed, being a dutiful wife for many long
years. I truly believe Jake loved Lily at times. I think you would too
if you read it even though he was abusive. I know it doesn't make sense
but you have to read it to understand.
Unfortunately, Lily
doesn't get much in return in the form of a loving and caring husband.
Instead of flowers and chocolates, she gets fists flying into her head
and verbal degradations spewing from Jake's lips. He oftentimes would
embarrass her, sometimes in situations with other women who he obviously
lusted for. It's not what she thought her marriage would be. She often
wondered what marriage would have been like if she married her high
school sweetheart instead....
Even though there were years of
deceit and abuse, there were good times too for Jake and Lily. I found
myself rooting for Jake plenty of times, thinking he'd really changed.
There were times when Jake would really impress me. But the straw that
broke the camel’s back was a long time coming. Lily finally snapped. She
lasted way longer than I would have, but it was different during those
times so I understood why she did. I was in a state of shock when I
found out what Jake did. I mean...I expected some form of it but I
didn't want to accept it. Carole Bellacera kept me on the edge of my
seat the entire time so when I found out what Jake did, I was like, oh
hell no!
This review could go on and on but I'm going to stop
now. There is so much that happens that I don't want to give it away.
There were so many turn of events in this book...never a dull
moment....I can assure you that!
I feel like this book is
somewhat personal to the author....it's just a feeling I have. I could
be wrong but I don't think I am. Every once in a while I'll read a book
where I get this feeling, like it's reaching out to me, letting me know
these are real words form a real person. A fictional story yet
underneath the lining is the true life of a real person. I strongly
believe there is truth in this story somewhere for the author.
This
story does have a happily ever after, in case you're wondering. Yes
romantically....and in other ways too. Lily was pushed down so many
times but she never gave up. She was fighter, a soldier. She did what
she had to do and in the end it paid off for her. Its funny how things
come full circle... you get what you deserve in the end. I have always
believed in karma and this novel just goes to show that it.
Lily
of the Springs is the kind of book I love the most. The one I look for
and have the hardest time finding. The kind that really get down in the
bones, take root and never let go.
Every once in a while, a song will play that makes me think of a book. This time it was
Carrie Underwood's, So Small. I have played that song so many times since reading this book. Perfect.